You're welcome to witness my breakdown..

i don’t choose to like you or to even want you, yet you still taunt me with the hugs and winks. everyone’s told me ‘he’s no good’ but i don’t listen cause i’m waiting and hoping for the day you realise what you mean to me and what we could be. but no, that wont happen. your ego is too big, you’re an ass-hole and i wish i hated you instead of this. run along, you slag. i don’t need you. i promise i wont miss you. i promise not to break. i keep my promises, unlike you. i do not need you *anymore.

i don't understand why you can't see this!? maybe i'm not obvious enough, but i know you're 'tied down' - and you know i don't like her. i guess this is the way it goes, always. i should've fought for you in the beginning, i should've tried harder to make you realize...
times up, i'm done, i'll walk away. she won.

she's an insecure cow, but no, you take her in as if she's the most perfect angel. you take her in with loving arms, yet you don't understand that you're playing your cards, dragging other people into this. you wont ever realize, will you? you say if she cheated, you'd walk, but we both know the truth. you're stuck to her, like glue, and you don't want to get away, no matter how much it breaks me, i want you to be happy. you're both a trainwreck waiting to happen. i wont wait for you.

you wont ever know what i feel, nor will i ever let it slip. its better this way.
 
i want the simplicity back, before i started feeling things for you i simply shouldn't feel. no, i don't mean i shouldn't feel them because of
1) your feelings and precious skank of a girlfriend
2) your skank of a girlfriends fake as hell feelings
3) my "bestfriends" feelings towards you and skank girlfriend
but for me... because i shouldn't have to do this day-in, day-out. i shouldn't have to shield myself from the constant hurt you bring me, or the un-wanted butterflies you give me.
but i do, i do this day-in, day-out because boy, whether you know it or not, whether you appreciate it or not, or whether you like it or not, you are the nicest thing.
i would do anything to stop the hurt she brings you.

i wish you'd see what's gonna happen. without me having to the be the one to take the hit and explain. i really wish you'd see what i feel.. please, realize it?

i can't be who you want me to be, no matter how hard i try. i'm not her: just realize it, sooner rather than later, please. save me the hurt.